sometimes i think that the one thing i'm looking for doesn't really exist. shrugs. and my idealistic world of imagination is too far beyond that of reality. which is probably the truth. haha. doesn't that mean that i'm chasing something that i created myself, that doesn't exist. and my search for it will never end, cos its not there to be found. and since i won't settle for anything less than what i want. it probably means i'll just spend my entire life searching and never finding that peace.

hmms. a bleak picture i'm painting. hah.

but while i still can, while i still believe. i shall happily immerse myself in my world of make-believe.